guess what...im a big jealous douchebag

today was band practice! other than the fact im doin my dream in life by makein music and bein stoked on that, it sucked! just lame band drama! but all in all practice was good! finished fine tuning the new song! my favorite new line is the last line for the song and it is your the beauty in all this chaos! good stuff!! so not much else happened today other than the argument johnni and i just had like an hour ago! without going into it ill just sum it up in one little statement! im a big jealous douchebag! but johnni might throw a few other words in there like her favorite thing to call me lately is a woman! so if it was johnni suming it up it might be more like a big feminin jealous wussy douchebag! sumthin like that proly! lol i feel like such a effin idiot sometimes cause i hurt her and i hate that!!! but u know what? i love her to death and would do anything for her! so i just gotta work on my flaws! i would never hurt her on purpose!! but we worked it out and were laughing by the end of the phone call and she was calling me names so i dont think shes to mad at me anymore! :) thats a good thing cause i cant handle it when she is mad at me! ugh! well its five thirty now and im gonna crash before the sun comes up! untill next time!